• A view from the inside

    ZHUCHI was fortunate enough to be put in touch with a young, vibrant woman called Liv.  Liv has a story that most 18 year olds won't ever experience.  She has a diagnosis most of us couldn't comprehend.  But Liv strives to make sense of life - just as the rest of us do, and she does so with composure and a fearlessness that defies the cards she's been dealt.

    I am honoured to be in touch with Liv and I am honoured to post your words and poem on the ZHUCHI blog.  Today's is for you Liv, and thank you.

    My name is Liv.  I suffer from Schizoaffective disorder.  I've been suffering since 2008 with Depression.  Then in 2011, I was diagnosed with Bipolar disorder.  In 2012 I was diagnosed Schizoaffective. I also suffer with epilepsy, traits of Borderline Personality Disorder and I self harm.  I have been through a lot, but I have surely learnt a lot from the people I have met, and those who have looked after me. It is a rough road, but well worth it.

    The Truth be Told 

    Pills, pills and more pills

    Hills, hills and more hills

    I'm on struggle street

    Oh wait I've missed a beat...

    I know many people on the street

    Crying, cuts, bruises and stains

    All the tissues down the drains

    Voices and hallucinations

    It hurts but I know

    It goes across the nation

    It hurts to make friends

    Cause it's touch and I dread

    All the pain

    Of being on my own

    Tissues, tissues so many issues

    Funny how quick you can call it quits

    I feel so strange I just want a grave,

    doesn't even need my name

    To be in a deep fast sleep.

    - by Liv

  • Comments on this post (4 comments)

    • Livvie says…

      Thank you so much Liz for posting my poem , it means a lot. And thanks for the lovely comments they are so beautiful and lovely :) thanks again

      Liv xx

      on March 10, 2014

    • jacinta says…

      such a beautiful poem, such a beautiful young woman, mum’s reply brought tears to my eyes, thank you for sharing…..

      on June 13, 2013

    • Kerrry Anne Jordinson says…

      Hi Livvie,
      I can’t begin to imagine what you go through, but to be able to put it into words to share with others is a lovely thing. You are a brave and resilient young lady. Please keep going with your poems. I’m sure there are SO many more!!

      on May 31, 2013

    • Mum says…

      My Livvie,

      Your strenght, kindness, love and caring of others I am in awe of. In all these years of sickness and suffering you have never complained, more concerned about others than yourself.
      What a shame people out there are so frightened of Mental illness, if only they would take the time to understand and care.
      How lucky was I to be chosen as your mum.
      You shine through your words my darling. Love you so much it hurts.
      To the most beautiful, loving girl I will ever know, my girl.

      Thanks Liz an Chris

      on May 29, 2013

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